Kakao Talk Stickers
if you look closely at the first gif, it looks like xiumin is saying “나니” (nani) or more likely “하니” (hani/honey)
which makes luhan go “뭐라 그랬어/뭐라고 했어/뭐라고 말했어?!” (mwora geuresseo/mworago haesso/mworago malhaesseo? = all different ways of saying what did you say?)
and then we have both of their embarrassed reactions afterwards lol. partial fanacc taken from here.
Matsui Jurina in 4th Janken Taikai 2013
You know….I just spent like 20 minutes writing this long ass post to comment on today’s outcome, and guess what, when I went to hit “save to draft” tumblr decided what I really meant was “DELETE ALL THE BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARS YOU PUT INTO MAKING THIS MEANINGFUL POST ABOUT YOUR OSHIMEN BECAUSE IT’S NOT LIKE YOU HAD ANY INTENTION OF ACTUALLY POSTING IT”. So I re-write this abridged version, with masochistic tears in these deadpanned eyes, and a forced smile as I try to recollect my godammed emotions and thoughts. Bear with me. And even though I preface this with words that will make the first sentence seem completely untrue…it’s actually still how I feel.
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What else can I say besides the fact that I’m the happiest fucking camper right now!
I made up in my mind a long time ago that no matter how many people hate the things Jurina says, or hate the things Jurina does, or hate the way Jurina looks, or hate the people who support Jurina, or hate the fact that Jurina’s not everything they need her to be or think that she doesn’t care or respect their idealistic views on how things should be done, or hate the fact that Jurina’s made the ambitious (some say reckless) decision to give her all to BOTH akb48 and ske48 — even if she herself hasn’t figured out what exactly that means to her yet — or simply hate the fact that Jurina just won’t go away……it will never, ever be remotely enough to change or falter the fact that Matsui Jurina has at least 100% of my support, adulation, admiration, and utmost respect.
In short, I couldn’t give two shits about what people think is management meddling or favoritism cause it doesn’t make Matsui Jurina any fucking less of a human being and any less deserving of positive experiences in life.
Idols give me so much. They brighten up my day with their music, and when they perform. They make me laugh when they do silly things on tv shows or when they blog or when they make their own videos. When I see them cry I get pissed — Pissed because I feel like they emotionally give so much to me and thus I have a strong urge to give back to them, so when things happen that are out of my control, I feel helpless. In the end, I realize I care more about the humans behind the product.
And I’m not saying that anyone else even has to think the the way that I think…love em the way that you want to, hate em the way that you want to, build your experience the way you want it to be — I got no problem with that. Heck, in the end, the only person I really have to deal with is myself.
It’s just that it’s so easy to get caught up in the materialistic bullshit surrounding media and entertainment industries and completely forget that behind it all, these girls have friends and family that have seen them grow and been with them every step of the way and are proud of them. It’s also easy to forget that some of these girls face personal hardships just like the rest of us. They might have lived through loss of a family member through death or happen to have that one bullshit parent that decides they want to have nothing to do with their family anymore, or even physical hurt from family members or bullying from peers at school, or be dealing with the tiring frustration of life expectations. There are just so many factors that are easy to forget and overlook cause they’re pushing out this idea of perfection and it makes me sick to think that sometimes (if I’m not thoughtful) I can forget about that too.
Spirituality is a big part of my life and I guess I just constantly try to make sure to think, question and re-evaluate my personal thoughts to ensure that I don’t get caught up in the fray. There are silly things I’ve said in the past that I look back on now and think, “Wow, I used to be a douche.” But the relieving thing is that I’ve met some pretty amazing people along the way that have helped me change and re-form my views and opinions on things in the 48-family and life in general (some of which might end up reading this post not even knowing they are one of those people) — I learn so much from making sure to surround myself in the right kind of people to help me grow, and I wouldn’t trade them for the world.
But anyway, I’m probably rambling by this point and not making any sense. I just needed to get that out more for my own personal re-affirmation of my feelings than anything else.
I’ll got back to work now.
#my oshimen #is perfect in every way#and not a damn thing anyone else says…will change that
Onew and EXO’s Xiumin || credit: snowflake
qt minseok during #growl12thwin